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I've decided to just have done with this so another, and final,
6-27-2013 10-27-11 AM day!!!

The Fifty Question meme
If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today? As I include myself within the category of --everyone I know-- since I do, in fact know myself I would gather-up my husband and my daughter today and I would take us to the beach where we would visit with the ocean until we all died together there tomorrow. I don’t care for this question.

Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous? No. In some real sense, I’m here for my child and she doesn’t care how attractive I am or how famous I am. All she cares about is that I’m here.

What is the difference between being alive and truly living? Awareness.

When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right? Depends on what you’re calculating risk and reward about. There is no one answer that can fit all situations.

If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake? Because we’ve been taught that mistakes are failures and no one wants to fail.

What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you? Not that much.

When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing? Last time I did meditation.

What do you love?  Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love? There aren’t that many ‘whats’ that I truly love, only ‘whos’ still, I guess if I had to choose a ‘what’ it would be art and, for me, I express my love every time I put pencil to paper.

In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday?  What about the day before that?  Or the day before that? Some days I will remember even in five years because I take photos representing some days and put them, annotated, in a photo album and I write several times a month in a separate journal for my daughter. But every day? No. Not even close.

Decisions are being made right now.  The question is:  Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you? A little of both because, life is, whether we like it or not, whether we want to admit it or not, about compromise. The decisions I make affect others and their decisions affect me and we have to be aware of that very reality. I’m not doing this on my own. No one is.

Fifty ALL done out of fifty :D
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The Fifty Question meme
6-27-2013 10-27-11 AM Two Days In One!!!
At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive? Alone, when I’m either drawing or writing. Not alone, when Lauren and I are exploring something new, be it idea or place.

If not now, then when? I believe that every day should mean another accomplishment or an attempt at another accomplishment anyway. So if not now, then maybe tomorrow.

If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose? Nothing.

Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever? No, although my daughter says that this is what she does with her best friend all the time.

Why do religions that support love cause so many wars? Because, I think, for far too many of them, but not all, their love only extends to their own kind, to those who believe as they do. If someone doesn’t believe as they do, then they are the enemy and don’t deserve even respect let alone love.

Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil? Not for me it isn’t.

If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job? No. For one thing, a million dollars isn’t what it used to be plus, since I consider my art to be my job, I will be doing my work until the day I leave this place.

Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing? The latter.

Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before? No. Each day is unique, has its own trials and accomplishments, its own ebb and flow.

When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in? 1993

Forty done out of fifty :)
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The Fifty Question meme

Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
Either way I would lose half of myself so, I have no answer for this.

Is it possible to know the truth without challenging it first? I think that people who don’t challenge accepted truths don’t know themselves, they simply go along the same paths that others have made for them, blindly accepting something as true simply because someone before them said it was true.

Has your greatest fear ever come true? Hell no.

Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset?  Does it really matter now? Yes, frankly, it does.

What is your happiest childhood memory?  What makes it so special? I have no one happiest memory. A number of happy memories revolve around afternoons spent at Pacific Beach in San Diego. Just my parents and me, the soft sun, the warm surf, and a distant radio usually playing a baseball game or music. I loved playing in the waves and lying on my towel afterwards, dozing as the sun dried me. We’d play cards, read, eat a picnic lunch and then as the sun set, we’d walk home to our little four-plex apartment, pretty tired out from an afternoon of doing pretty much nothing.

Thirty done out of fifty :)
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Two days for the price of one since my answers are much shorter than the questions themselves.
The Fifty Question meme

How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy? Everyone isn’t me, different needs, wants, expectations.

What one thing have you not done that you really want to do?  What’s holding you back? Get my drawings into a gallery. Conflicting goals, shyness, lifestyle choices.

Are you holding onto something you need to let go of? Shyness, I suppose if we are to take the answer to the above question at face value

If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why? If I could, I would live in Manhattan because it’s a place where life happens, for better or worse, 24/ 7. At least the kind of life I want to live.

Do you push the elevator button more than once?  Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster? Absolutely and no.

Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton? The former.

Why are you, you? Nature and nurture. DNA and environment together, if not equally, in combination.

Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend? Not always, maybe not even mostly, but I’ve had the same friends, in some cases, for decades so, I must being doing something alright.

Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you? The latter.

What are you most grateful for? Each next day.

Twent-five done out of fifty :)
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The Fifty Question meme

You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire.  They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend.  The criticism is distasteful and unjustified.  What do you do? I would admire them less, respect them less and, without much trepidation, put in a least a little of my two-cents about the friend they’re disrespecting. Distasteful and unjustifiable criticism, especially behind someone’s back, shouldn’t be tolerated.

If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
My mother’s advice to me: Leave a place as good as, if not better than, you found it.
My daughter’s advice: Don’t judge until you’ve walked a mile in someone else’s shoes.

Would you break the law to save a loved one? Yes.

Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity? I saw in one person both at the same time and it was a little scary, he was a little scary. But he was a friend, a good friend so I dealt with him as best as I could for as long as I could.

What’s something you know you do differently than most people? If given a situation, any situation to be accomplished, no matter how small, no matter how big, my mind scatter-shots to every single little tiny thing that will have to be done to make that happen. To every single little tiny thing. I can easily overwhelm myself just thinking about what needs to be done so we can go out to dinner.

Fifteen done out of fifty :)
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The Fifty Question meme

If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
Drawing & writing.

Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing? Both. A little of both. I take care of my family and my friends. I believe in that. But I also think I should be doing something more. I’m settled with my comfortable life instead of fighting for whatever that something more is. I used to take-it-to-the-streets, but now I’m more about giving money so that others can take-it-to-the-streets.
           I keep rereading the question, I don’t believe I’ve answered what they’re asking, but I’m settling for what I’ve done.

If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently? I can’t answer this. I mentioned it to Lauren who said that if the average lifespan were 40 years she certainly wouldn’t have spent more than half of that time in school. She’s about to graduate university and is pretty tired of the whole process.
         I say that maybe if we were all like those little genius kids in Ender’s Game, we could accomplish a lot in 40 years. Otherwise, the same restrictions would apply to my 40 year left as applies to my current lifespan.

To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken? My life, like any other, is not a journey I’ve taken alone. At times, I’ve been more in control, at other times, much less so. I’ve been forced to relinquish control because world events, the dictates of my, and other, governments, family obligations, and other considerations have made it so. I’d think that within those constraints, which are always there, I’ve controlled my life to a reasonable degree.

Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things? I’ve never much worried about doing the right things since the definition of RIGHT shifts and changes depending on age, gender, culture, time, and Right as defined by who. I do what I believe is right as rightly as I can. End of story.

Ten done out of fifty :)
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In reading over the past few years what other [ profile] mission101ers had on their lists, I kept noticing a Fifty Question meme that I decided to add it to my list after only doing a cursory scan-job of the questions. Deciding to finally do this task, in actually reading the questions, I realized that many are the kind that I don't really care for very much, word games, black & white choices etc.

Still, I have the task on my list so each day for the next ten days I'm going to post five questions in the order they are given by whoever made up this meme in the first place.

Day One:
How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are? I would like to say I’d be 25, all bright-eyed and bushy tailed, even if a 25-year old would never say such a thing, but since I’m not all that, instead I’ll say 35, not so bright-eyed, not so bushy tailed, a bit jaded, but still willing to gamble and to maybe lose it all because there’s still time enough to try again.

Which is worse, failing or never trying? If you never try then you have failed, you’ve failed at what you never tried and you’ve failed yourself. Lose/ lose.

If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do? I can’t speak for others, but I’ve done things I didn’t like because they met some other more important goal like doing a job I didn’t care for so I’d be able to afford rent on a very small apartment that allowed me the much more important opportunity of living in San Francisco.
          As for liking things I haven’t done, I don’t agree with the statement since I don’t believe I can know I’ll like something until I have done it. I may imagine I will, but that’s not the same thing as knowing so with this, I disagree.

When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? The implication somehow being that saying is less than doing, yet I believe that saying is actually doing. Writers say all the time and in saying do. Still, I think I will probably have said a little more than I should have and done a little less, but how can I know for sure until all is said and done, which, hopefully, won’t be for a while yet.

What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world? The world is fine just as it is and will go on being just fine long after we've quite possibly destroy not only our ability to live here, but the ability of any other beings who need the same type of environment we do. Manmade institutions are the problem and since I believe all of these are utterly intertwined one with the other; changing one problem alone won’t make a difference. Ending climate change won’t end poverty. Ending poverty won’t end intolerance. Ending intolerance won’t end pollution.
          That having been said, maybe if every human being suddenly became completely aware of the fragility of our world, how in the 13.6 billion year history of our universe, there has never been another planet like earth nor will there ever be another just like it again, and how every other single human being alive is wholly unique in the history of human beings then maybe we wouldn’t treat the planet or those others living on it with us so very badly.

Five done out of fifty :)
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[ profile] secretsolitaire played this meme and then asked if anyone else wanted to so, of course, I said 'hit me with a letter, sweetie' and so she did, the ever problematic:
Letter R.

To begin.
Something I hate: For me, hate is a very strong word, but still, I’ll say REPRESSION. Whether it’s one gender by another, one identity by another, one religion, one culture, one nation, or one race by another, repression is actually equal to hate and consequently, as I see it, shouldn’t be tolerated in any civilized society.

Something I love: READING. Need I say more? I think not!

Somewhere I've been: Did you know that Rhode Island is the only state that begins with an R? And I’ve never been there. And that Russia and Romania the only European countries that begin with an R and again? I’ve never been to either of them either.
          So, I’m going with a geographical formation, the ever majestic ROCKY MOUNTAINS.
Somewhere I'd like to go: Rhuddlan, Denbighshire, Wales because I want to go to Wales and, again, there just aren’t that many city-towns in Wales that start with an R. Plus a whole lot of place I really would like to go such as London, Edinburgh, Glasgow, Belfast, Cardiff, and Dublin, notice how none of them start with an R, are seemingly within an easy driving distance of Rhouddlan, meaning under 200 miles, away. Yes, in various directions but whatever.

Someone I know: REGINA. She’s a woman I met and became friends with because our daughters became friends in first grade. Our friendship was complicated by the fact that Regina is a Republican fundamentalist Christian and I am not. I’m a progressive Democrat non-theist. And yet, despite our polar-differences, we were able to forge a fairly tight friendship. When her family moved to Arizona several years ago, after they’d been there a while, she told me that she found it boring that everyone there thought like she did and that she was going to have to find someone like me so she could continue to have lively discussion like we had had. I'm pretty sure she's still looking :).

A film I liked: Rear Window
From Netflix:
As his broken leg heals, wheelchair-bound L.B. Jefferies (James Stewart) becomes absorbed with the parade of life outside his window and soon fixates on a mysterious man whose behavior has Jefferies convinced a murder has taken place. Meanwhile, other windows reveal the daily lives of a dancer, a lonely woman, a composer, a dog and more.
          Lauren calls this my ‘stalker’ film. I explain that he’s not a stalker, he’s a photographer, but she insists upon not seeing the difference. It’s also a very stylish who-done-it thriller directed by Hitchcock, consider by many, who know about such stuff, as one of his best, and starring my favorite, James Stewart along with Grace Kelly.

And so to conclude, in the immortal words of [ profile] secretsolitaire --If you want to play, leave a comment and let me know you'd like a letter! :)
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The Movie Meme

Rules: In a text post, list ten movies that have stayed with you, ten movies you're rewatched more than once or pushed your friends into watching or can't get out of your mind. Don’t take but a few minutes, and don’t think too hard — and, yes, limit it to ten. Then tag ten friends and spread the madness.

In no particular order: (Man, this took a long time)

1_A. I.: Artificial Intelligence_(2001)_directed by Steven Speilberg_starring Haley Joel Osment & Jude Law.
From Wikipedia_PLOT_.In the late 21st century, global warming has flooded coastlines and a drastic reduction of the human population has occurred. There is a new class of robots called Mecha, advanced humanoids capable of emulating thoughts and emotions. David (Osment), a prototype model created by Cybertronics of New Jersey, is designed to resemble a human child and to display love for its human owners.
Images from this keeping coming back to me and always will. The story haunts.
2_Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron_(2002)_A Dreamworks Pictures annimation_Nominated for the Academy Award for Best Annimated Feature_Soundtrack by Hans Zimmer; Lyrics by Brian Adams, this is one of THE most beautiful soundtracks ever.
From Wikipedia_PLOT_The film follows the adventures of a young Kiger mustang stallion living in the 19th century wild west. In contrast to the way animals are portrayed in an anthropomorphic  style in other animated features, Spirit and his fellow horses communicate with each other through sounds and body language. Spirit's thoughts are narrated by his voice actor Matt Damon, but otherwise he has no dialogue.
Mine and Lauren's first, in a long long line, of beloved annimated films. We saw it, with a gaggle of her friends, for her 9th birthday.
3_Apcolypse Now_(1979)_Francis Ford Coppola_starring Martin Sheen, Robert Duval, and Larry Fishbone
From Wikipedia_PLOT_The film follows the central character, U.S. Army special operations officer Captain Benjamin L. Willard of MACV-SOG, on a mission to kill the renegade &presumed insane U.S. Army Special Forces Colonel Walter E. Kurtz.
I CANNOT hear helicopters without flashing back to this film. I saw it in San Francisco, with a gaggle of guy friends, first showing on the day it opened.
4_Pleasantville_(1998)_directed by Gary Ross_starring Tobey Maguire, Jeff Daniaes, and Reese Witherspoon
From me_PLOT_This is an American fantasy and hard to explain. Inadvertently, through the use of a strange TV remote control, a sister and brother, (Reese & Tobey) are transported into a marathon showing of the brother's favorite 1950s black & white sitcom, Pleasantville. It's about how two contemporary kids deal with living in a black & white world and their affect on that world that makes this movie so memorable.

5_Rise of the Guardians_(2012)_Dreamworks 3-D Annimation_Voice talents of Chris Pine, Alec Baldwin, Hugh Jackman, Isla Fisher, and Jude Law
From Wikipedia_PLOT_Tthe film tells a story about Guardians Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, the Easter Bunny, and the Sandman, who enlist Jack Frost to stop the Boogeyman from engulfing the world in darkness.
Very different in style from Spirit, this has to be one of the most beautifully annimated films I have seen. I love the golden sandman named Sandy; the bad-ass Russian-esque Santa named North; the half human-half hummingbird tooth fairy named Tooth; the also bad-ass Australian-esque easter bunny named Bunnynund; and the despondant, isolated eternally teenaged Jack Frost who is conjoled by the others to help them defeat the boogieman, Pitch Black who is the essence of fear and nightmares and who is wonderfully play by Jude Law. I especially love that each character, except Sandy and Jack , has their own uniique legion of minions with North's North Pole natives, the Yeltas being my favorite.
6_The Lord of the Rings Trilogy_(2001 to 2003)_directed by Peter Jackson_starring Elijah Wood, Viggo Mortenson, Ian McKellen, Sean Bean, Christopher Lee, Liv Tyler plus a ton of others.
From Wikipedia_PLOT_Set in the fictional world of Middle-earth, the films follow the hobbit Frodo Baggins as he and a Fellowship embark on a quest to destroy the One Ring, and thus ensure the destruction of its maker, the Dark Lord Sauron
I can't really add anything except these films made the books live for me. Brillant.

7_The Harry Potter 7_(2001 to 2011)_various directors_Daniel Radcliff, Emma Watson, Rupert Grint, and so on and on.
From me_PLOT_Neither I nor Wikipedia can summarize 7 movies easily. Suffice it to say that, within the wizarding world, located within but unknown to the non-wizarding world, there is a battle gearing up between light and dark that could bring about the ruin of both worlds with Hogwort's School of Witchcraft and Wizard at the center of the battle.
Between the books and the movies, from the time she was eight until Lauren was 17, our lives revolved around this series. Man it was fun. So much fun especially since in the middle of all that, they put out the three LOTR's movies. I told Lauren then that it was a very special time and it so was!
8_Star Wars Episode IV: A New Hope_(1977)_directed by George Lucas_starring Mark Hamill, Alec Guinness, Harrison Ford, & Carrie Fisher
Taaken from Wikipedia_PLOT_A group of freedom fighters known as the Rebel Alliance and led by Princess Leia plots to destroy the Death Star space station, which carries a planet-destroying capability created by the Galactic Empire.
This movie amazed me the first time I saw it and is the only movie of the series that truely has withstood the test-of-time for me.

9_North By Northwest_(1959)_directed by Alfred Hitchcock_starring Cary Grant, James Mason, and Eva Marie Saint
From Wikipedia_PLOT_An American spy thriler, this is a tale of mistaken identity, with an innocent man pursued across the United States by agents of a mysterious organization who want to stop his interference in their plans to smuggle out microfilm containing government secrets.
I think I love this film because it is  pure Hitchcock and so very very stylish. The scenes with Grant dodging a crop duster in open fields and those invovling Mount Rushmore are never to be forgotten.
10_The Truman Show_(1990)_directed by Peter Weir_starring Jim Carrey, Ed Harris, and Laura Linney
From Wikipedia_PLOT_An American satirical, social, science fiction, comedy-drama, the film chronicles the life of a man who is initially unaware that he is living in a constructed reality television show, broadcast around the clock to billions of people around the globe. Truman becomes suspicious of his perceived reality and embarks on a quest to discover the truth about his life.
This film is included because of the way it has stuck with me all these years, it's so well done and the final scene so beautifully done.

I tag [ profile] penelopes_web, [ profile] skimmed_milk, [ profile] later2nite, [ profile] connorblond, [ profile] michira_70, [ profile] emo_snal, [ profile] ashmedai, [ profile] casey270, [ profile] tv_fan_2008, and [ profile] sexy_pumpkin

As am I. Well, I don't know about the beautifully part but I am absolutely sure about the done part :)

gaeln9796: (icon interest_books short stack) [ profile] ashmedai for a book meme as follows.

Rules: In a text post, list ten books that have stayed with you in some way. Don’t take but a few minutes, and don’t think too hard — they don’t have to be the “right” or “great” works, just the ones that have touched you. Tag ten friends.

Chosen in under ten minutes (with Lauren's help); all fiction; in no particular order:
At Swim, Two Boys by Jamie O'Neill_Beautifully written historical fiction, this book is about the relationship between two mid-teen Irish boys during the pivotal years of 1916 &1917.

Ender's Game by Orson Scott Card_I may not like Mr. Card but I love his science fiction, I first read Ender 20 plus years ago, then reread it several years ago, and am planning on rereading it yet again very soon.

The Harry Potter series by JK Rowling_I started reading these to Lauren when she was seven or so anxiously waiting with her as each new book came out year after year.  A couple of years ago, I reread them back to back and was just as enchanted as the first time even if reading them alone wasn't quite as much fun as reading them with my kid.

American Gods by Harlan Ellison_For this over 900 page book, Ellison deservedly won awards for fantasy, science fiction, horror and some other catagories too. It is about the battle betwwen the American Gods ie: the new gods and the ancient gods ie: Odin, Thor et al.

The Foundation Trilogy by Issac Asimov_Set something like 3,000 years in the future, this is hard core science fiction at its best.

Night Circus by Erin Morganstern_A weird and very visual fantasy encompassing three timeframes, all leading to one point and all focused around the most amazing circus ever.

Dream Boy by Jim Grimsley_About the relationship between two teenage boys living in relative ismall-town solation, one popular, one sexually abused, and how they attempt to protect each other.

Watership Down by Richard Adams_Rabbits, it's all about the rabbits and the world they live in.

Keys to the Kingdom series by Garth Nix_A young reader fantasy series of seven books that Lauren recommended, this is a complex story of a young boy fighting for the survival of humanity with a completely unforgettable ending.

The Book Thief by Marcus Zukus_I love this book, how it's written, Death's little interludes, just all of it.

I tag [ profile] fansee[ profile] rocketjava[ profile] film102[ profile] techgirl_on_ij[ profile] kinwad[ profile] skimmed_milk[ profile] mitakay,
[ profile] mysweetprince_, [ profile] rebeccama, [ profile] secretsolitaire

Have fun!! I know I sure did :)

gaeln9796: (icon interests_summer sun)
Wherein you post 3 things per day for three days that you are thankful for.

Day One can be found here
Day Two can be found here

Day Three
Day Three is three technologies I'd rather not live without, which I suppose could put to a lie what I had said on Day One that I was going to keep this simple. Technology isn't simple, but these three technologies help me make my life simpler so, I include them here.

7_Like the slippers from Day Two, my Kindle Paperwhite was a Christmas gift, the one I petitioned for most strenuously throughout December. I have bad eyes, was one of those little kids that had to wear glasses from first grade on and so, I've always lived with the fear of the day when my eyesight would no longer be good enough for reading. I fear no longer!! I know for some reading off of a device like this is tiring but for me, it's perfection because I can set the background light, the font, its size and read in any kind of light, including sunlight. And it conveniently fits in my purse so, I really couldn't ask for much more then that, now could I?

8_My little Toshiba laptop, which connects me to all of you and to tumblr and to almost all of human knowledge it sometimes seems. With it I have written stories I never could have written longhand, I just don't have that kind of patience. It helps me organizes my life and so much more. What a wonderful tool my little computer is :)

9_Another Christmas gift, I've probably had this little point-&-shoot for five years now and with it, I have taken thousands of photographs. It came with me to Boston and New York where using it, in just three weeks, I took over 1,500 photos. With it, I have documented our lives and while mine, unlike this google image, shows its age, a great deal of the black has chipped away to silver, I hope to use it to take at least a few thousand photos more :)

Allllllll done!!!
gaeln9796: (icon interests_summer sun)
Wherein you post 3 things per day for three days that you are thankful for.

Day One can be found here

Day Two:
4_These slippers were a Christmas gift from Lauren and David, picked out by one, bought by the other, my so comfortable Bob's Fashion Skechers, chosen because the sole not only has support but is sturdy enough for light outside use. Plus they're gray and all fuzzy so yeah, very cool.
5_My Galaxy S4 is kind of like a life companion, traveling with me everywhere I go, keeping me from getting lost, reminding me of things I need to do, entertaining me.
6_While I did get this image off of google, it is of my actual water container which, like the above-mentioned phone, also travels with me everywhere I go, loaded up with ice and cool cool water as I am one of those people who can NOT drink it at even so much as room temperature.


Tomorrow, the last three!
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penelopes_web tagged me to take the challenge of listing 3 things to be thankful for, for 3 days.
I think I'll keep this simple :)

1_I'm thankful for the little bamboo tongs that keep us from burning our fingers when we remove toast from the toaster oven.

2_I'm thankful for my iPod which is old and lovely and which helps keep me sane :)
3_I'm thankful for the little red hobnail tea pot that Lauren and I have used countless times to make soothing cups of Earl Grey tea!
Tomorrow three more!

Icon Meme

Feb. 6th, 2014 09:20 am
gaeln9796: (icon words_meme)
Blame [ profile] fansee for this - she made me do it. (Not really.)

1. Reply to this post and say you want to play, and I will pick five of your icons.
2. Make a post (including the meme info) and talk about the icons I chose.
3. Other people can then comment to you and make their own posts.
4. This will create a never-ending cycle of icon glee.
5. I can't promise to pick in a timely manner, but I will do my best.

The icons [ profile] fansee picked for me :)



These first three, Film, Quote, and Poetry, were made by me because I like icons that reflect, as most of us do, the content of my posts or my comments. They probably all came from Google image searches.

The Poetry icon is special because I first used it when, years ago, I had decided to do a poetry book for Lauren and had done a post asking my f-list for their favorite poems. I received such a tremendous response and when I finally did make Lauren her book, my f-list's user names and comments were all include :)

by [ profile] jackshoegazer
Like most of us, things often happen that seem perfectly valid to those doing the thing, but that to me, make no sense. I use this icon almost exclusively for comments for when weird things happen to others. I doubt I've ever made a post using it. I have another, No More Reality, which kind of expresses the same idea.

This represents my family, Lauren, David, me, and was first used in 2009 for my very first [ profile] mission101 because, unlike those since, this first mission was more of a family affair, which lovely as it sounds, makes it much more difficult to get things done.

I look forward to you letting me chose five of your icons so you can play too :)

gaeln9796: (icon words_meme)
Last week maybe, or maybe it was the week before, Alex [ profile] ashmedai did a 'letter' meme where someone gives you a letter and you write about three or four words starting with that letter. He said he would give a letter to anyone who asked so, I did since I feel I haven't actually been participating in LJ as I should.

He gave me the letter S:
First word that came to me as I lay try to sleep was:
Stories: both reading them and writing them. Whether long stories or short, whether written last year or a hundred years ago, I love to read and I love to write, stories about fandom or about my own little world, maybe even more so about my own little world. When my dad died, reflecting on my own someday, I realized that I didn't so much mind dying for myself, as long as Lauren is settled, but that I minded that all the little people who have populated my head since I was t10 or so, would die with me never having had their stories told. So, to my satisfaction, I am.
Next came
Science: When people ask me what I believe in, I tell them science and not just because of what all the different sciences can reveal to us about who we are and where we live, but also about how science is done. While the goal matters, it's the journey that really counts and if it turns out that some long-cherished tenant of some beloved theory is proved wrong, eventually it will be discarded and something new will replace it. Moving ever forward.
Next came:
Sound: Actually sound & sight because since I'm somewhat lacking in the one -sight, I make up for that lacking with the other -sound. My world is full of sound, music is a constant because it grounds me, almost as if the music defines my borders. When I walk into a place with little or no sound like someone's quiet house, I feel disconnected, ill-at-ease, almost like in a void. Plus, I hear things others don't, far off distant things, the roar of a motorcycle for way too long, dogs barking in garages, a freakin' car alarm several blocks away that woke me up the other night and that then went on and on and on.
Finally, a lot more words come to mind but I chose:
Safe:Something I have pretty much always felt, but now no longer really do, living here in America. Movie theaters...nope, not really. Malls...not so much. College campuses...well, Santa Cruz is probably okay. I listen to the self-proclaimed 'good guy' NRAers and they scare me, seriously scare me. They don't make me feel safe, they make me feel vulnerable. I don't want to live in their world, one where it seems like a whole lot of people have just given up on even pretending to be civilized. It's like The Wild West all over again. How fun!! Like my husband, David, said 'I don't want to have to worry about whether the guy at the next table in the restaurant has a concealed weapon or not'.

Two hundred thousand people almost immediately joined the NRA after 20 five-year olds and five of their protectors were slaughtered. Record sales at gun shows...everywhere. Oh hell no, don't ask me for no background checks. What thehell good"ll that do? The criminals will still get their guns so, why the fuck do anything at all, right?? Notice how the NRA is using women as their spokesmen on CNN and elsewhere. Very clever. Still, I believe here are a lot of straight white men in this country that hate, women, blacks, gays, whoever, and they demand their right to be armed. Not all NRAers are haters, not all gun owners are irresponsible, but enough are that I no longer feel safe. I'd been thinking about wanting to leave this hotbed of liberalism I live, but now I'm thinking, maybe not. Rant over.

Okay, well, that was longer then I imagined it would be. Sorry if I blather on.

Wanna ask me for a letter?? Come on, you know you do. Right?
gaeln9796: (icon words_meme)
Rule 1- Post the rules.
Rule 2- Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post and then make 11 new ones.
Rule 3- Tag 11 people and link them to your post.
Rule 4- Let them know you’ve tagged them!

[ profile] arwensong, [ profile] fansee, [ profile] flashfly, [ profile] galesweetie, [ profile] herefordroad, [ profile] pam81, [ profile] pclu2004, [ profile] qbeeqt, [ profile] secretsolitaire, [ profile] ta_wanda and [ profile] tv_fan_2008

I was tagged by [ profile] penelopes_web, these were her questions:
1. If I came to visit your hometown, name some place you would recommend that I visit.
San Jose Museum of Quilts and Textiles or The Tech Museum if you have kids, which you do
2. If you came to Las Vegas, name something you'd like to see or visit.
Whereever cirque du soleil is because I have actually been to Las Vegas often, but I haven't seen their show.
3. Name a book that you would recommend.
The Book Thief by Markus Zusak
4. What sport/event are you looking forward to watching during the up-coming Olympics?
I like the winter better, but I think I'll watch more for the scenery than anything sports-esque.
5. What is a misconception about the town/city/country that you live in.
I think the misconception is that San Jose isn't much more than a suburb of San Francisco. Google, Netflix, HP, Cisco, ebay, Apple blah blah are all here, many started here plus we have theater, ballet, a symphony, several museums so in fact, we rock!! I still like the city better, but I'm just sayin'...we rock!!!
6. What do you think of when I say "comfort Food"?
Meatloaf, my grandmother's recipe, with mashed potatoes and creamed corn.
7. Are you morning person or Night Owl?
I'm somewhere in between, I can easily stay up late at night and I can also easily rise in the morning. Doesn't much matter either way since I sleep little.
8. Name some thing you are looking forward to.

Lauren coming home in mid-June for 3 months of summer!!!
9. You've got the afternoon free and clear and $40 dollars (or equivalent) in your pocket - where would you go, what would you do?
Willow Glen, a little district in San Jose I may have mentioned before especially in connection with Lauren. In fact, I'm meeting my friend, Barbara, there tomorrow for lunch which the $40 should just about cover!!
10. Do you have a special heirloom that was passed down through your family? What is it?
I have a tons of stuff, nothing passed down for many generations, but the fawn-colored tablecloth my grandmother Rae Inez crochetted starting when she was 18 until she was 21 is particularly special.
11. Your achilles heal...for instance D's is speakers - I can't begin to tell you how many sets we have around the house and that he constantly up-grade them, and mine is shoes...I LOVE weakness.

Milk glass, pottery from the 1930s & 40s, native American pottery, and surprise surprise books, old ones.

my questions for my eleven )

Have fun!!!

gaeln9796: (icon interest_writing_pen)
These are part of a universe of my own making, not QAF, not Lambliff. There are 5 so far, one is done but not posted.
First: My music surrounds me, separates me, lives only in me and is, in just this moment, my most trusted and constant companion, that and the book I’m reading.

Second: I don’t know which surprises me more, that she actually is somewhere in this huge downtown mall or that she apparently is allowing me to come to her because, rather annoyingly, I normally only feel her leaving me.

Since it’s Thursday night and the bar isn’t too crowded, we’re able to find a secluded corner, furnished comfortably with plump sofas and oversized chairs, away from the main seating area that, at least for the next couple of hours, we can call our own.

How much longer can you stay there all hunched into yourself? It’s freezing out, but still you sit, ass on the cold stone steps that lead up to your pied-a-terre, knees hugged tight to your body, your head down like trying to protect yourself from the wet winter wind, while I sit safe and warm in Kelly’s Diner just across the street.


gaeln9796: (icon words_meme)
snagged from [ profile] secretsolitaire
When you see this, comment with a poem you love or post one in your own journal
to encourage the proliferation of random poetry through your flist

Psychoanalysis: An Elegy
Jack Spicer

What are you thinking about?

I am thinking of an early summer.
I am thinking of wet hills in the rain
Pouring water. Shedding it
Down empty acres of oak and manzanita
Down to the old green brush tangled in the sun,
Greasewood, sage, and spring mustard.
Or the hot wind coming down from Santa Ana
Driving the hills crazy,
A fast wind with a bit of dust in it
Bruising everything and making the seed sweet.
Or down in the city where the peach trees
Are awkward as young horses,
And there are kites caught on the wires
Up above the street lamps,
And the storm drains are all choked with dead branches.

What are you thinking?

I think that I would like to write a poem that is slow as a summer
As slow getting started
As 4th of July somewhere around the middle of the second stanza
After a lot of unusual rain
California seems long in the summer.
I would like to write a poem as long as California
And as slow as a summer.
Do you get me, Doctor? It would have to be as slow
As the very tip of summer.
As slow as the summer seems
On a hot day drinking beer outside Riverside
Or standing in the middle of a white-hot road
Between Bakersfield and Hell
Waiting for Santa Claus.

What are you thinking now?

I’m thinking that she is very much like California.
When she is still her dress is like a roadmap. Highways
Traveling up and down her skin
Long empty highways
With the moon chasing jackrabbits across them
On hot summer nights.
I am thinking that her body could be California
And I a rich Eastern tourist
Lost somewhere between Hell and Texas
Looking at a map of a long, wet, dancing California
That I have never seen.
Send me some penny picture-postcards, lady,
Send them.
One of each breast photographed looking
Like curious national monuments,
One of your body sweeping like a three-lane highway
Twenty-seven miles from a night’s lodging
In the world’s oldest hotel.

What are you thinking?

I am thinking of how many times this poem
Will be repeated. How many summers
Will torture California
Until the damned maps burn
Until the mad cartographer
Falls to the ground and possesses
The sweet thick earth from which he has been hiding.

What are you thinking now?

I am thinking that a poem could go on forever.

gaeln9796: (icon words_meme)

I rarely do mems anymore, but whatthehell, this one seems easy enough.

Leave a ONE WORD comment that you think best describes me.
It can only be one word. No more than one word.
Then copy & paste this post to your own journal so I can leave a word about you.

Lauren's in her room reading 'Jane Eyre",
David's in the office reworking his website,
and me? I'm in the den just playing on LJ.


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